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Out of Print and Unavailable
Motion Dream (2010)
This is a concept album about dying. It takes a lot of what I was going through in For Your Listening Pleasure and makes it into a more linear story about dying at the age of 16, the age I was when I wrote it.
A lot of Motion Dream is just about that sense that Western society hates young people and is still coming from a religious perspective that says young people are spiritually irredeemable – the idea being that if I died as a teenager, I would burn in Hell for eternity, because my soul didn’t “make it” to adulthood.
The album plays on that sense by not really accepting it, but not being able to fully reject it either, because I’m right in the middle of all this, being spiritually overpowered by everything coming at me from the worlds of both the living and the dead.
Sonically, I played a lot more with digital effects than usual, and I created a whole kind of soundscape for it that wasn’t like any of my other albums – a lot of the songs have a lo-fi punk rock feel to them with psychedelic aspects, and as it goes on and I get closer to dying, it becomes blurrier and maybe more shoegaze influenced.
One thing that really comes up with this one is how much goes on musically that you’d expect to hear a drum kit on, but there is no drum kit, and a bunch of the songs don’t even have percussion – none of the albums I made in the year 2010 had a drum kit on them, because I was lending my drum kit to my high school – which means there are a lot of these really elaborate and uptempo rock songs that happen to not have any drum kit, or even anything but electric guitar and vocals – this had a huge influence on my work as Cannonball Statman, because it showed me how many things you can do with just a guitar.
I made a bunch of CDs of Motion Dream, and it was relatively well-received – it was similar to For Your Listening Pleasure in that I’m glad I made it, but at the time, I felt like it was too raw and traumatic to be comfortable with taking it any further in terms of publicity than I did. The idea was “if I survive into my 20s, then I can think about really putting my music out there into the world” – for awhile, I really did just think I was going to die in my teens, because that was the mentality of the world around me.
from Out of Print and Unavailable Discography (as Jesse Statman)
Stench of the City (2012)
Collision (2011)
When it Rains (2011)
Painting With You (2011)
Pizza Carbonara (2011)
Rainbow in Santa Cruz (2010)
Motion Dream (2010)
For Your Listening Pleasure (2010)
Electric Fuzz Tiger, Wooden Room, World Stuff, and Space Travel (2010)
(or, go to the beginning for the full list of out-of-print and unavailable projects)