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For Your Listening Pleasure (2010)

This was probably my darkest album of this period. I was going through a lot at the time, and what I was trying to express in the album was how I felt as I was processing the trauma of being raped, while simultaneously feeling like I had deserved it, because I had felt like I was a genuinely horrible person after some of the ways I’d been for a few years when I was a kid and in my early teens.

A lot of the songs make heavy use of bass guitar, with fingerpicked bass lines playing a similar role to what a rhythm guitarist normally would, and the electric guitars playing either just lead parts or faint, sparse strums that are atmospheric and inconsistent – there’s one song with percussion (“The Cave of Snow”), and some songs with more use of the guitar, but the bass is probably the most frequently heard instrument on the album.

I made a bunch of CDs of this one, and I think the CD ultimately did better than the online release – it’s a pretty disturbing album overall, to the point where I often worried if people who bought the CD were really prepared for it, since most of them really only knew my lighter work. I’m glad I made this album, because it was important to express what I was going through in some way – but I’m also not planning on doing much with it in the future, because it’s such a traumatic one.

from Out of Print and Unavailable Discography (as Jesse Statman)
Stench of the City (2012)
Collision (2011)
When it Rains (2011)
Painting With You (2011)
Pizza Carbonara (2011)
Rainbow in Santa Cruz (2010)
Motion Dream (2010)
For Your Listening Pleasure (2010)
Electric Fuzz Tiger, Wooden Room, World Stuff, and Space Travel (2010)

(or, go to the beginning for the full list of out-of-print and unavailable projects)